How the ‘Rona gave me time to get to know myself

General / 10 August 2020

So, of course, if you are reading this, you know all about the Corona virus, you know; the weird virus that everyone on social media is arguing about while we all go crazy locked indoors.

Anywho, I think it’s real easy to say that this virus has effected and changed life for everyone in some way.

Well, my teaching job went online for the first few months and kept me busy enough that it really didn’t affect my life that much and I didn’t have time to notice much difference. I was still working, just from home on camera. Then campuses got merged online and I got laid off, suddenly giving me much more time to fill in my schedule.

Now don’t worry about me. It actually allowed me to take another opportunity from another school that wanted to hire me, so I’ll be back in class/online soon.

I had originally also planned to reduce my teaching hours this year, in order to focus on professional development and continuing to improve my creative skills.

So, with any free time I’ve had I’ve been filling my time with that.

Again, a pretty seamless transition.

However, I can not avoid the fact that there is a lot more room for my anxiety driven analysis of the world and self-reflection. And so my mind does as it always does.

However, the funny thing about reflection, when done properly, is that you can actually  work though some issues that may have been troubling you for a long time. If you’re being honest with yourself at least.

In spite of the world wide apocalypse plague, when I reflect on my lot in life and experiences that got me here, I have to say I’m probably at the best point in my life thus far.

I’m not rich, I don’t live extravagantly, but I have people in my life who care about me and I feel like I’m finally reaching the quality of work that I’ve imagined in my head since I was 10 years old. I have lots to be happy about.

This recognition of these things that I appreciate is suddenly allowing me to change my perspective and really pay attention to life and my connections with the people around me. It is so satisying to just not have to rush constantly. This clarity is more valuable than I can put in to words because I feel like it has given my brain the chance to slow down and realize what I want to do with my life and why I do what I do.

If I’m being totally honest, I want to help people.

That’s it. I just want to help others.

Now, I’m not a lawyer or doctor or firefighter or of the other jobs we under-appreciate that make our lives possible every day. I could try to develop one of these skills, but as I am closing in on 40, my chances of success are extremely low.

What I do have that I can use to help people now is a professional level set if skills in storytelling.

Whether it’s a book, comic, video games, cartoon or anything else that I create, my objective and purpose is to help people. It may not be obvious on the surface all of the time, but everything that I create is full of hidden meaning and context, some of it subconscious, but always meant to reach out and be a connection with the viewer. Sometimes it’s to comfort them. Sometimes it’s to comfort myself.

The world can be a wonderful place. It’s up to each of us to make the world a better place in the best way we know how.

In my case, i feel like the best way to do that is to at least try to create a new, fair publishing system that allows the artists and creators of content to be fairly compensated and to prosper from the fruits of their own creation.

Some people are going to think I’m crazy. Maybe they all will, but I just can’t see any other course of action than to speak up and lead by example if you truly believe in something.

Maybe the idea will fail. There’s a good chance that it will, but I’m not willing to give up on the idea without trying. Even if my ideas help someone else build a better system, or my failure helps the next person create  better system, or just one other person tries my approach and prospers because of it, then it will all be worth the effort.

We should all be trying to make life on Earth better for everyone. Some people improve life by a mile, some by an inch. Whether my contribution is meant to progress things by an inch or a mile, I will use my skills to carry that progress as far as is asked of me.

Thank you for being the kind of person who does that too.